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I Am Not Nice noviembre 30, 2004

Posted by Johan in Uncategorized.

I sold my car, and for better or worst I have to use public transportation now every day to go and come back from work. A few days ago I was late as always and tired as hell when this lady hops in the bus, she has to big bags on her arms and she’s almost falling over, some guy stepped over her and people in general were clearly annoyed and made angry remarks, like “How dare she have a lot of stuff! How dare she block the alley with all her fucking…stuff!”. I knew that if I give her my seat I’ll be standing up the whole ride (about 45 min) but I stood up anyway and let her sit down.

I helped with her bags. They were all beaten up because she had tried to hold everything together so tight because people were giving her all kinds of shit because she was in the way. I made sure she was alright in her seat before zoning out to another dimension as I always do when I don’t want to be where I am, but I could hear her say: “Thanks God there still nice people in the world”.

She was wrong. I am not a nice person. I just hate it when people ignore others who are in need. That makes me considerate, maybe, but ask anyone who knows me, I am not nice. I am a fucking ass. I complain all the time. I am unbearable and annoying.

I’m able to find the negative side of everything and with me you’ll know why perfection doesn’t exist. I have a hard time forgiving people, and when things go wrong I’ll find someone else to blame. I am possibly the most manipulative person you are likely to encounter. If you look in the dictionary under “selfish”, you will see my name and a small rendering of my face.

The people in my world live in a kind of hell from which they cannot escape, because even though I am who I am, what I am, how horrible I am, my love for them is overwhelming. They choose willingly to go through the pain in the ass I am, and their suffering is compensated many times over.

I am ferociously mean and unbearably kind, and this paradox is what keeps my friends close and my enemies closer. I hate injustice, dishonesty, cowardice, greed, stupidity – but that doesn’t stop me from committing all of these acts in one way or another. I am not nice. Not in the least. But that will not stop me from helping you.

Now listening: Sir Mix-a-Lot – Baby got Back



1. Maléfica - noviembre 30, 2004

You was nice for that woman, maybe only for a while. But, it was important for her. All of us are nice, sometimes.

2. Anonymous - abril 14, 2005

UR so right! u do find the negitive things in everything but my question to u is IF U KNOW UR THIS WAY.. and u obviously dont like it cuz u said it in the sentence before that Y R U STILL THAT WAY?


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